
Ernest Hemingway manuscript from his early days in Paris
I would stand and look out over the roofs of Paris and think, “Do not worry. You have always written before and you will write now. All you have to do is write one true sentence. Write the truest sentence that you know.
Ernest Hemingway, A Moveable Feast
Today I turn 69 and understandably am having a satisfyingly pensive morning over coffee, books and journal this morning. I’m grateful for this gift of life and that I have been afforded the opportunity to explore my art. Three decades of teaching brought plenty of reward and experience, but now I am blessed to know retirement and leisure sufficient to graze in these pastures. I am especially happy to feel I am emerging from a nasty illness that has flattened me for over a week. I really believe I’ll enter Studio Eidolons later today and resume the art I abandoned ten days ago. Reading Hemingway was timely. All of us know the feeling of flatness and anticipate with appreciation the invitation to return to creativity.
This morning’s reading turned up this gem from Robert Henri, truly a fiery prophet for the visual artists who made up The Ashcan School in the early twentieth century:
There are moments in our lives, there are moments in a day, when we seem to see beyond the usual–become clairvoyant. We reach then into reality. Such are the moments of our greatest happiness. Such are the moments of our greatest wisdom.
It is in the nature of all people to have these experiences; but in our time and under the conditions of our lives, it is only a rare few who are able to continue in the experience and find expression for it.
At such times there is a song going on within us, a song to which we listen. It fills us with surprise. We marvel at it. We would continue to hear it. But few are capable of holding themselves in the state of listening to their own song. Intellectuality steps in and as the song within us is of the utmost sensitiveness, it retires in the presence of the cold, material intellect. It is aristocratic and will not associate itself with the commonplace–and we fall back and become our ordinary selves. Yet we live in the memory of these songs which in moments of intellectual inadvertence have been possible to us. They are the pinnacles of our experience and it is the desire to express these intimate sensations, this song from within, which motivates the masters of all art.
What I would have given to occupy a space inside Henri’s studio at 806 Walnut in Philadelphia! It is written that he gathered the young newspaper illustrators around him and read to them from Emerson, from Whitman, from Tolstoy, and continually fired them up to draw, to paint fearlessly, to take their work to the grimy urban streets and render the world that encompassed them daily. They began as The Eight, and finished as The Ashcan School. I’m excited to think of tonight when I get to meet the other Nine of this new circle that is opening Studio 48 for the opening reception. Hopefully we’ll be able strike a match, light a torch, and continue this art trend that is sweeping across this portion of Texas.
The final paragraph of Henri’s statement above brings to mind something that has occupied my attention for a long time, this struggle between the flourish and the discipline of making art. The ancient Greeks knew of the conflicting forces of Dionysus and Apollo, the passion versus the order. Throughout my life I have felt I was too anal, too cerebral to be a true artist. No doubt I have surges of feelings about making a painting, but I also possess much training and listen to too many voices while I work.
In Hemingway’s A Moveable Feast there is the humorous account of his assessment of artist Wyndham Lewis, whom Ezra Pound worshiped. Gertrude Stein, however, referred to him as “the measuring worm”. She complained that he looked at a subject, held up his pencil and with his thumb measured out the proportions of what he was going to paint. Then he went back to his studio and got it all wrong.
The first time I read this account, I wrote the following in my journal:
This has implications for the illustrator vs. the artist, the guitar player vs. the musician. It is about mechanics vs. style. I know how to play the guitar, but I don’t feel I’m a musician; the musician has the “touch”, the “it factor” that somehow pulls music out of the instrument, creating a sublime sensation. When it comes to art, I know I am well-trained, and have many tools in my toolbox. But when I make art, sometimes there is that special Something that emerges greater than my studied techniques, and it emerges unexpectedly. It is in such moments that I feel I have done the work of the Artist.
Time to get back to the studio. Thanks for reading.
I make art in order to discover.
I journal when I feel alone.
I blog to remind myself I am not alone.