Welcoming 2019

January 1, 2019

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The passions are a kind of thirst, inexorable and intense, for certain feelings or felt states. To find or invent ‘objects’ (which are, more strictly speaking, relational structures) whose felt quality satisfies the passions,- that for me is the activity of the artist, an activity which does not cease even in sleep. No wonder the artist is constantly placing and displacing, relating and rupturing relations; his task is to find a complex of qualities whose feeling is just right – veering toward the unknown and chaos, yet ordered and related in order to be apprehended.

–Robert Motherwell

What an exhilaration to awake to a 19-degree winter morning on New Year’s Day 2019! With no appointments on the books, I felt a soothing calm as the day presented itself with leisure and books. Reading passages from Abstract Expressionist artist Robert Motherwell put me in the frame of mind to explore drawing with renewed vigor. He defined drawing as a method for organizing space on a two-dimensional plane.

The first day of the new year often witnesses a different trajectory in my art. Currently I am working on commissions, and will begin posting them, but I also laid down a New Year resolution that I would draw more. So . . . a few years ago, I drew one winter tree per day for the month of January, then matted each 5 x 7″ drawing, framed a few, and sold a large quantity of them. This year, I’m not thinking about the sale, only the hope to improve with the careful discipline and repetition of drawing. My intention is to spend January with a focus on drawing nature.

Thanks for reading.

I make art in order to discover.

I journal when I feel alone.

I blog to remind myself I am not alone.

 

Digging Up Bones, Late in the Night

April 23, 2024

My New Exhibit at Studio 48 Gallery in Arlington’s Gracie Lane Boutiques

We will all return to the Bateau-Lavoir. We were never truly happy except there.

Pablo Picasso in 1945, quoted in Picasso and the Painting That Shocked the World, by Miles J. Unger

I did some of the best work of my life there.

Robert Motherwell, reminiscing about his East Hampton years, 1944-1952, quoted in Robert Motherwell: The East Hampton Years, 1944-1952, by Phyllis Tuchman

I am on dangerous ground. My mind wants to gild my memories. It wants to present the past in soft focus, as muzzy and sentimental as a greeting card. It doesn’t want to remember the long days spent drinking . . . No, I cannot afford to romance my past. It does not serve me. To stay emotionally sober, I must focus the lens of my perceptions clearly on the now.

Julia Cameron, Finding Water: The Art of Perseverence

I am up past midnight in my sacred Studio Eidolons. Sandi is busy in the other room, and I feel the warmth and camaraderie of her presence. The next two days will seem frenetic, as we organize, pack and load for a 6:00 a.m. arrival Friday at the Dallas Arboretum. But we’ve been here before, many times, and panic is not in our psyches. I’m enjoying the quiet of the night as jazz softly plays in my studio and I attempt to state my present mind in this blog.

The string of quotes above touch me deeply. I have read several times of artists in their senior years somehow pining to return to the way things were when they were younger. My sentiments, however, align with Julia Cameron in her Finding Water. I have no pretense about my life in 1987 when I was trying to figure out what direction to take. I’m posting a photo below of me in the back yard of my garage apartment in those days, posing before a completed acrylic on canvas of my hero Friedrich Nietzsche, laboring into the night. I miss my trim physique and full head of hair from those days, but that is all. I am not romanticizing those days. They were pure hell. I recently re-read my entire 1987 journal that recorded those torrid, suffering days, and all I can say tonight is Good Riddance.

I am happy to live closer to 2022, posted above. In 1987, I wondered if I could ever reach a calmer, more contemplative life as a creative. Now, retired after a successful teaching career, I’m happy to do what pleases me most, and grateful for the health and strength to set up an art booth and enjoy a quality festival atmosphere for a weekend.

And speaking of which–last night I was notified that I have been juried into the Trinidad Art Fest 2024 to be held in Colorado. I have been waiting this year to see if I could get in, and now we are making exciting plans to participate in this show July 12-14, and then journey on to South Fork, Colorado to enjoy the cool San Juan mountains. I’ll be ecstatic to return to the trout streams and play with some plein air watercolor activity. No, I don’t pine for the days I knew in 1987. I’m grateful I’ve been allowed to live to my seventieth year and enjoy the things we do now.

Trinidad Coffee Memories. Framed Watercolor

Thanks for reading.

I make art in order to discover.

I journal when I feel alone.

I blog to remind myself I am not alone.

Emerson: The Gold Standard

April 22, 2024

I have just turned seventy, and loving friends have sent an abundance of birthday greetings. This morning finds me reading Emerson before diving headlong into a weeklong task of packing my gear for the weekend’s Artscape 24 at the Dallas Arboretum. I’ll be in Booth #28, and I’m excited beyond measure. I have certainly begun this Monday aright, reading Emerson’s essay “Experience.”

My life changed in 1989 while attending a National Endowment for the Humanities Summer Institute at University of North Texas. I had just completed my first of twenty-eight years as a high school teacher, and was chosen to participate in a nineteenth-century American study of Hawthorne, Thoreau, Whitman and Twain. It was then that I was introduced to the essays of Ralph Waldo Emerson, and in 1992 was fortunate to attend a Summer Seminar at Oregon State University to study Emerson, Thoreau and Margaret Fuller. This New England sage became my most valued spiritual mentor from those days.

Years ago, I managed to purchase a first edition of Emerson’s Essays: Second Series, published in 1844. Though I’ve read this essay countless times, I decided this morning to read “Experience” in its entirety. I feel that I have been bathed in magic waters.

Our love of the real draws us to permanence, but health of body consists in circulation, and sanity of mind in variety or facility of association.

It was Emerson who convinced me in 1989 to live a Life of the Mind, to allow ideas to refresh my day-to-day existence. Reading this essay afresh once again reminded me to stick to this creed.

I have been shocked several times throughout my later years in life to run across friends from high school and college who had become mere shadows of what I had known before. During school days I had revered them as remarkable visionaries. Youthful and vibrant, they were leaders of their class, in intellect, in enthusiasm, so magnetic in their intense personalities. In later years I frequently found these heroes as wan, worn down by life. I wondered, what happened? Reading further in Emerson’s “Experience”–

We see young men who owe us a new world, so readily and lavishly they promise, but they never acquit the debt; they die young and dodge the account: or if they live, they lose themselves in the crowd.

And again . . .

Our friends early appear to us as representatives of certain ideas, which they never pass or exceed. They stand on the brink of the ocean of thought and power, but they never take the single step that would bring them there.

I would not expect any of my peers to remember much of me from high school and college. I know that in high school I felt inferior, though I knew I had artistic talent. In college, I became hungry to know more, to experience more. But I didn’t see myself as any kind of luminary. And then came graduate school and then nearly three decades in classrooms. Though there were low points in my life, I can look back and say with certainty that I never allowed boredom or lethargy to settle into my life; there was just too much out there to experience, to explore. And I still feel that way. I have no sympathy for those bored with life. There is no excuse. We will never be permitted to reach the pinnacle of knowledge or experience, but wow, what a rush to try! I am grateful today to be alive. To be healthy. And still to be interested.

Having written all that, I now turn to the task of organizing and packing. I just received my Load-In time for Friday–6 a.m. I’ll be ready.

Thanks for reading.

Finding Water on a Saturday Morning

April 20, 2024

Gallery at Redlands Lobby Window

For the past few weeks, I’ve been reading and following the basic program of Julia Cameron’s book Finding Water: The Art of Perseverence. I’ve never had trouble persevering in making art, and seldom feel “blocked” as far as creativity is concerned. But during Sandi’s recent illness, I’ve stopped my basic activities in the studio, and now that she is stronger, I find it difficult to get back into the saddle. Of course, I cannot feel the motivation to begin a new painting, because in less than a week I’ll be setting up my booth at the Dallas Arboretum for Artscape 24.

The forecast now hints that we’ll be soaking in rain throughout that weekend, and we are certainly soaked today, Saturday. So, I guess I can safely say I have found water, thanks Julia. But honestly, I don’t care if the festival rains; I’ve been through that many times, I have an excellent Trim Line Canopy tent that will keep out the water, and all I can do is hope the rain doesn’t chase the patrons away. If it does, I’ll have a couple of days of solitude to read inside the dry confines of my booth, sip coffee, and admire my display. Maybe I’ll even attempt some watercolor sketching on my easel. I’m leaning forward in anticipation of a splendid festival experience, sorry that I missed this one last year. I’ve been looking over my inventory, trying to decide what to include in this year’s display, and am leaning toward the one below:

Arkansas Repose. Framed Watercolor. 26 x 29″

I photographed this truck in Arkansas a few years back when I was en route to their Plein Air on the White River event. I’m happy to return this year as a juror, and will do a workshop during the week the event runs its course. I will of course take part in the plein air activity that I’ve missed in recent years. The Waxahachie plein air competition opened yesterday and will run through May. I’m looking forward to participating in that event as well, having already enrolled in it.

Here is what I just found in the Julia Cameron book that I’m enjoying at present:

Ours is a youth-oriented culture. We are trained by television and the media to focus on those who are young. Our pop stars are youngsters. Their fortunes are immense and their futures bright. We do not read much or hear much about life in the arts for older people. We do not have many role models for doing what we must do–and that is persevere.

I understand what Julia is saying, but that sentiment does not fit mine in the least. I know the media parades the youth pop stars, but thanks to YouTube as well as published books, those of us who wish it are able to pull up the examples of the older generation and draw inspiration from their mature works. For the last couple of decades, I have drunk deeply from the wells of Edward Hopper, Andrew Wyeth, Robert Motherwell in their final decades of life and productivity, and have been profoundly inspired by them. I have also pored over the biographies and writings of William Carlos Williams, Wallace Stevens and Larry McMurtry during their senior years, and their words still stir me daily. I have no doubt that my own work will not fall off as long as my health holds out (incidentally, I’m turning seventy this very day).

Thanks for reading. This Saturday, though soaked, is turning out to be an inspiring day for me.

Sifting Through the Debris

April 19, 2024

My Booth at Artscape 2022

There are memories of days of this sort, of wonderful driftings in and out of the crowd, of seeing and thinking. Where are the sketches that were made? Some of them are in dusty piles, some turned out to be so so good they got frames, some became motives for big pictures, which were either better or worse than the sketches, but they, or rather the states of being and understandings we had at the time of doing them all, are sifting through and leaving their impress on our whole work and life.

Robert Henri, The Art Spirit

With the Dallas Arboretum event one week away, I find myself today tidying my wreck of a studio so I can make it a legitimate workspace. In the adjoining room I have stacks and stacks of discarded art work from years past–some of it unfinished, some of it finished but not matted or framed, most of it forgotten. I’ve decided to look at all the discarded work to see if any of it can become part of my “A Team” to hang in the art booth next week. It’s not that I don’t have enough merchandise for the space. At last count I had 92 framed watercolors ready to hang. But I have seen all of those in Gallery at Redlands, Studio 48, and various art festivals where I’ve participated. I’m ready to see something new on the walls. And so, as I slog my way through this studio tidying, I lean forward with interested anticipation at what I’ll find as I did up the old bones of past work. If even one of them is deemed worthy of display, I’ll feel I have done something productive. I have a good supply of mats and frames ready to put on new work.

I’ll leave early in the morning to spend Saturday in Palestine’s Gallery at Redlands. At the end of the day, I’ll pack up some of the gallery’s furnishings for my booth the next weekend.

Thanks for reading. I’ll post more when I have more to report. Artscape will be April 27-28, and I’m getting ready to organize and load my gear for the event. I’d love to see you there!

Artscape 2024 around the Corner

April 16, 2024

My art booth at Artscape 2021

. . . some kind of rearrangement or sorting-out process often occurs within the mind which brings with it a sense of peace; a sense that the depths of the well of truth have really been reached.

Anthony Storr, Solitude: A Return to the Self

Sandi and I have suffered a long slog for over a month. She has been very ill, and we’re happy to see her finally recovering some strength and getting back to some of what she used to do before this affliction. This finds me returning to the studio and catching up on work that has piled up.

With Artscape less than two weeks away, I’m beginning the task of “rearrangement or sorting-out” that Anthony Storr, one of my favorite writers, published in his seminal book. I’ve managed to acquire a good selection of smaller-size matts and frames, and am putting together some recent watercolors I’ve managed to create but not yet put out on the market. I believe I’ll dedicate at least one of my booth’s Pro Panels to an assortment of smaller scale works instead of loading the entire space with enormous pieces more easily seen at a distance.

Snowy Rhapsody. 8 x10″ watercolor in 11 x 14″ matt

In recent months, I’ve completed five new watercolors of snowy evergreens. I’m looking forward to putting some of them in the booth for display and sale.

I’m pretty covered up in work now, but will try to post daily of our progress till that big weekend arrives. Thanks for reading.

Saturday Gallery Musings

April 13, 2024

Bright & Early Coffee. Framed Watercolor in Gallery at Redlands. 22.5h x 23.5w”

Missing was the thing Jim had found in Marx and Veblen and Adam Smith and Darwin–the dignified sound of a great, calm bell tolling the morning of a new age . . instead, the slow complaining of a door loose on its hinges.

William Carlos Williams, Paterson

I laughed out loud when I read the above passage this morning. I’ve been working my way through WCW’s epic poem and have only put ninety-six pages behind me so far. But the words posted above resonated with me because they paint in bold relief what I feel about today’s culture. I am a confessed YouTube junkie, but I find it a continual chore to slog through all the contemporary claptrap commentary in search of a decent lecture or documentary on the work of someone creative, someone who has something of lasting value to say. Lately I’ve found amazing material on William Carlos Williams, Wallace Stevens, e. e. cummings, and Jack Kerouac to name a few. But I frequently wade through pages of crap for several minutes in search of something of value to view or give attention to when I’m out for a long walk.

It is Saturday, and Sandi and I are back in our Palestine Gallery at Redlands for the day. New work has been put up, including the painting that opens this blog. I just got it back from the framer and am delighted at its overall look. I was driving through May, Texas over ten years ago, when I stopped and took a photo of the Bright & Early Coffee billboard, peeking through the darkened shadow cast by the roof of an abandoned filling station. Ghost signs have been my passion for years, though I feel that I don’t paint them enough. I have a thick file of photos I have taken, all of them crying out for reproduction and recall of an era disappearing from our view.

Map of Artscape 2024 at the Dallas Arboretum, April 27-28

I am delighted to announce my participation in Artscape 2024 at the Dallas Arboretum April 27-28. I have been assigned booth #28, in the exact center of the event (I marked the spot on the map). I’m also proud to display a number of new framed pieces not yet appearing to the public. Preparations for the booth display are already underway, and I cannot overstate my excitement. At the same time, I feel the sadness of last year’s memory–the day before the festival opened, I received news of Dad’s critical condition in the hospital. I canceled the event and traveled to St. Louis to be with him. He managed to hold on until he passed in August, never able to return home. Still, I see the April date as the anniversary of his downturn.

Now that I’ve finally filed my tax returns, I’m thrilled to return to making art and sitting the gallery.

Thanks for reading.

Back in the Gallery Again

April 6, 2024

We had to rise at 5:00 this morning if we hoped to be showered, dressed, fed, and arrive at our Palestine gallery by 9:00. Fortunately for me, I managed to squeeze out a little time to read and settle down before commencing our two-hour road trip.

Seated at my drafting table, I peered out the window into a dark, pre-dawn suburban landscape and decided to open a couple of books for some quiet, leisurely reading. How amazing, the conversation springing up between these two disparate authors . . .

The twenty-first century is full of people who are full of themselves. A half-hour’s trawl through the online ocean of blogs, tweets, tubes, spaces, faces, pages, and pods brings up thousands of individuals fascinated by their own personalities and shouting for attention.

Sarah Bakewell, How to Live, or A Life of Montaigne

In Manhattan, my apartment is one set of lights amid millions. In the galaxy, Manhattan is just a sprinkling of lights on something known as planet Earth. . . . Seated at my writing desk, looking out at the glittering lights, I strive for a sense of optimism, a feeling that as small as I am, what I am doing still matters in the scheme of things.

Julia Cameron, Finding Water: The Art of Perseverance

From the time I began posting on social media, years ago, I was conscious of the tension between self-absorption and self-abegnation. It hasn’t gotten any easier; I still find myself second-guessing what I write before sending it up the flagpole for others to read. I was happy to read this pair of writers during this morning’s darkness. I thought about their statements nearly the entire two-hour drive down here.

As soon as we hit the gallery, I had to shift into high gear and get my work back up on the walls and easels. Recent festivals and workshops resulted in me removing most of my work from this venue, and I decided it was time for me to emerge once again in the Palestine community. Below are most of the watercolors I hung today, and plan to keep in place for a few weeks . . .

“Tasting the Winter Mist”

“Utah Bison Tranquility”

“Fishing Solitude”

“Snow-Bound”

“Lubbock Caboose at Rest”

“Snow Bison”

“Crosby’s Dream”

Today is the April Art Walk for Palestine, sponsored by the Dogwood Art Council. Gallery traffic has been heavier than normal, which is a good thing. It also makes it difficult to blog (smiling).

Thanks for reading.

I make art in order to discover.

I journal when I feel alone.

I blog to remind myself I am not alone.

Finding Water

April 5, 2024

My 16 x 20″ watercolor done on Good Friday

“What if” and “if only” are poison for any artist.

Julia Cameron, Finding Water: The Art of Perseverance

February 23 was my last blog post. I’m not sure if I’ve ever before gone for over a month without sending out a word. I won’t go into detail. When I feel I have nothing to contribute, I don’t blog. It’s been an unusually long dry season. Looking up from my drafting table now I drink in the beautiful light, color, and repose of “Mister Rogers’ Neighborhood” (my description of the idyllic view across my suburb), and I feel some of that creative eros coming back. And I embrace Julia Cameron’s words. Regret is indeed poisonous for anyone wishing to pursue creative exploits. I have had far too much regret throughout my past, and this morning I am letting it melt away.

I’ve posted above my latest watercolor. It was an honor to be selected among five artists to participate in a Good Friday service titled “Art in Motion.” The three-hour service was held at Trinity Grace Church in Mansfield, Texas. As music played in the sanctuary and worshipers came and went throughout the afternoon, five us us created art depicting our idea of Good Friday. I wanted to see if I could capture the impression of the site of the crucifixion. “Golgotha” is translated “place of the skull” and popular legend says the hollowed out places on the side of the bluff resemble eye sockets of the human skull. I was hoping to capture a darkened, stormy atmosphere in the composition and still find a way to work effective color into the grasses and rocky textures. The experience was a good one for me as my creative work has been largely absent the past month.

I now lean forward in anticipation of significant art activity on the horizon. Artscape 2024 at the Dallas Arboretum will be Saturday and Sunday, April 27-28. I am turning handsprings with delight to discover that my corner booth #28 will be in the exact center of the festival. In former years when I was at one end or the other, I often wondered about how many people actually walk the entire length of the festival grounds. Now, I smile at the thought that most of the crowd travels at least half-way! I have created many new pieces that have not yet hit the public, so I’m looking forward to bringing these out for vewing.

I have also decided this year to return to the Paint Historic Waxahachie event. It’s been a few years since I’ve done this, and I’m really looking forward to the plein air painting experience once again. I’ll be making trips to Ellis County in April as the competition gets underway, but the main event will be May 17-26. I have really missed the richness of this gathering. The total immersion I feel when kicking out a dozen or more watercolors stirs the emotions in ways I cannot adequately describe. I’m grateful for this opportunity.

And then . . . I’ve been asked to judge the Plein Air on the White River competition in Cotter, Arkansas May 6-11. Not only will I have the pleasure of judging high-quality plein air work; I’ll also lead a workshop of about 15 enthusiastic participants. I also intend to do plenty of painting in that colorful town as the week runs its course. The artists in Cotter, Mountain Home, and the surrounding communities in that part of Arkansas have been such an enrichment to me over the years. I have been honored to judge some of their events as well as conduct workshops and perform demos in their midst. I always leave there with a warmth of friendship that encourages me to continue in this work.

We’ll leave for Palestine early in the morning. The Dogwood Arts Council’s monthly Art Walk will enrich the city throughout the day. Artists and musicians will be sharing their skills in businesses all over downtown. Our Gallery at Redlands will feature my art work for this month, and the brunch served at the Queen Street Grille across the lobby from our Gallery will draw multitudes beyond number. We’re looking forward to a good day filled with the felicity of art.

I’m convinced that my fallow ground has been broken up, and I intend to blog from The Gallery at Redlands sometime tomorrow. In the meantime, I thank you for reading, and look forward to sharing a special word tomorrow.

I make art in order to discover.

I journal when I feel alone.

I blog to remind myself I am not alone.

Releasing another story from Turvey’s Corner

February 25, 2024

Sunday Morning with Randy

Ozark Court (no longer there). Route 66 west of St. Clair, Missouri

Sunday morning rays of sunshine lanced through the slits in the closed blinds of Room 18 at the Ozark Court Motel. Randy lay with his eyes closed. It took a few moments before he realized where he was and what day it was. Hitchhiking had not fared well the day before. Driving rains soaked him to the skin and no one was pulling over on Route 66 to offer him a ride. Why would they? No doubt he carried all the charm of a drowned city sewer rat as he trudged along the muddy shoulder, his knapsack beginning to let in water as well. But this morning he was OK. A soothing shower the night before and a Jack Daniels nightcap ushered in a quality night’s sleep. But now it was Sunday. What to do?

His Greek New Testament lay on the bedside table; he had removed it the night before, intending for it to be the first thing his eyes would see the morning after. Now he sat up in bed, stretched his limbs, and reached for the small volume he once thought he was going to discard when he dropped out of seminary. He couldn’t. Though he no longer congregated, he still woke on Sunday mornings feeling the need to reach for a text that had been his companion for two-and-a-half years, only now he no longer felt shackled by deadlines of term papers and Sunday morning sermon manuscripts. He could read what he chose.

But what to read? The Gospels crossed his mind. Always a good choice. But what did he want this morning from the Gospels? Did he want to see or hear? Seeing would include mental images of Jesus walking along a shore or down a dusty Palestinian street. Would he be solitary, seated in the wilderness, or thronged by a clinging crowd? Or did Randy just wish to hear as he translated the texts this morning? What would he hear? The voice of Jesus resonating in a synagogue, or speaking softly inside living quarters? Would he be strolling country lanes with disciples listening, or seated on a boulder discoursing? Or would he be sitting in a boat, his calm voice going out over the water while disciples pulled at the oars?

Why was Randy reaching for the New Testament, anyway? Because it was Sunday? He wasn’t congregating. He wasn’t called upon to address any hearers. So, what exactly did he want this morning?

Outside the motel, traffic was heard murmuring along Route 66 below the bluff. Randy was aware that he was seated in bed, alone, in the heartland of America. Today is Sunday, the Fourth of July, 1976. The country had been surging with anticipation for months as she edged closer and closer to this day—the nation’s bicentennial. No doubt Randy’s former seminary friends—preacher friends—had been wrenching themselves into a frenzy over what to preach on this Special Sunday. Randy breathed serenely, no longer trapped in that vise of psychological pressure. Still, he wondered. What exactly would he have said today, had he been standing before a congregation?

Opening the palm-sized volume, he read at leisure, allowing his mind to drift down pleasant corridors of memory as naturally as a canoe in a gentle stream. To this day he was thankful to have learned Koinē Greek. He recalled that first semester of structured recitation, vocabulary, and functional grammar. It was forbidden to purchase and attempt to read a Greek New Testament; the objective for the first semester was functional literacy. As children learn to speak their language before learning to read and understand the technical architecture of grammar, so the Professor endeavored to train his students to recognize Greek early and dissect the grammar later. And so, Randy studied his lessons and performed the daily recitations for a semester.

On the first day of the second semester, the Professor entered the lecture hall without a word, set his books on his desk, turned to the blackboard, picked up the chalk, and scrawled the following:

Peplērotai ho kairos kai eggiken ē basileia tou theou. Metanoeite kai pisteuete en tō euaggeliō.

Sitting at his desk in the third row, Randy leaned forward earnestly and stared at the words. As if scales had fallen from his eyes, he recognized and read the words instantly: “The time is fulfilled, and the kingdom of God is at hand. Repent and believe in the gospel.” The Professor turned to the class fixing his eyes on their faces, and solemnly declared: “You are now reading the New Testament. In Greek.” Sitting up in bed, Randy felt waves of warmth surging through his being as he recalled that historic morning. He was certain that he was re-living the spirit of the eighteenth-century Age of Enlightenment, Die Aufklärung. Life for him had been marked by so few quality moments. Opening his New Testament to Mark 1:15, he read the words afresh.

The time is fulfilled. On that historic day, years ago, Randy felt he had fulfilled his apprenticeship to elementary Greek vocabulary and grammar. He read a Greek New Testament passage with no assistance from a teacher or book. It was a new day. A new world dawned and beckoned. He had no idea then that a ministerial life, just underway, would collapse and burn in less than two years.

Now it is Sunday, July 4, 1976. The nation celebrates its 200th birthday. Randy wondered what exactly he was celebrating if anything. What was life offering now? Was he about to pass through another portal? Again, why was he reading the New Testament? Because it was Sunday? Because it was the Fourth of July? Because the country was now two hundred years old? What was in the air for Randy? He wanted to know.

Was he reading from the life of Jesus because he needed a mentor? Someone to guide him? Thinking back over his life, Randy realized he had always sought direction from a strong leader. His father, his pastor, his professors, and a few years ago that conference with Reverend Elton in Dallas. Did Randy need a mentor now? Or was it time to think for himself? Maybe his apprenticeship to life was ended and it was time to stand up, to strike forth and find new ground under his own direction. The time is fulfilled.

Rising from bed, Randy stretched and strolled across the small room to the writing table in the corner where he had placed his journal from the night before. Opening it to the pages he wrote the day he quit the seminary, he found a passage he had copied from James Smart’s The Divided Mind of Modern Theology.

There are remarkable parallels between the European mood of the twenties and the English and American mood of the sixties: God seemed to have gone into hiding; religious and theological language out of the past had become wooden and unconvincing; men felt themselves suspended between a world that had died and a new world that was waiting to be born; a church indifferent to the plight of the masses was recognized as unworthy of the name Christian; the identification of Christianity with Western civilization, and of divinity with the higher elements in man, had become highly suspect; in various forms the hunger for a new world now was felt, and some understood it as hunger for a living God. In that kind of world Barth and Bultmann became theologians whose one endeavor was to find the word that would unlock the future, the word that would bring wholeness of faith and creative power by being the very truth of the living God.

It is Sunday, Randy thought. Today, churches would perhaps fill to capacity to celebrate a 200th birthday. Yet, Randy sensed that the ministers would still crank out those same tired sermons, their singsong voices rasping like rusty squeeze boxes, sounding out the same two-note refrain of the deadly forces that continually threaten the vitality of our church and nation—abortion and communism.

Randy replayed from memory a line he had memorized from his reading of one of Nietzsche’s early essays:

He who has but two strings on his instrument . . . does not understand those who can play on more strings. It is of the essence of the higher, multi-stringed culture that it is always misinterpreted by the lower culture . . .

Randy’s recent sojourn had undoubtedly added more strings to his life’s instrument. No doubt this was the reason he was not attending church this auspicious morning, or any morning for that matter. Virtually everything delivered from pulpits he had heard before. Indeed, he was beginning to write out such tired words in his own sermons before he quit.

Randy recalled with a smile a quote he had read from his readings in the religions of India, how the Upanishad movement was sprung partly because the general population had grown weary of listening to the traditional chants of the Vedic priests “who sounded like croaking frogs in the swamps.” America in 1976 was sounding restless. Perhaps a new world was beginning to dawn. The time is fulfilled. Randy wondered if his own odyssey was corresponding with the quest of this American nation in 1976, poised to enter a new Age of Enlightenment. Where was Hank? It had been months since that night they sat at the fire, camping in west Texas. It was time to get together and talk some more. No doubt Hank had just as much weighing on his mind as Randy.

Turvey’s Corner was only thirty-five miles away. Randy had hoped to reach home yesterday, but the nasty rains hindered his ability to hitchhike with any consistency. The sight of the Ozark Court Motel and thought of a hot shower convinced him to stay at least one night here. Feeling refreshed and rejuvenated this morning, he decided he would step into the sunshine on this Independence Day and head back to his hometown. Perhaps Hank was already there.

Sunday Sermon

February 25, 2024

This morning I opened a fat file of sermons I delivered over a decade from a Unitarian pulpit. After reading and revising a few, I’ve decided to post this one, hoping it might bring comforting thoughts to some.

Thanks for reading.

Shepherd or Liberator?[1]

Human beings are a curious species.  Introduced to this earth, the individual immediately starts exploring boundaries, discovering rules, and trying to figure out what is supposed to be done in this life.  Many have argued that one thing that separates humans from other living species is the ability to reflect, to examine oneself and try to figure out some kind of purpose to this existence.  Life is a gift, yes.  It was handed to us without our request, and without our participation.  But we realize quickly that it takes a great deal of work and responsibility to sustain life.  And I think it is safe to say that most of the human population is not content with just staying alive biologically, but seeks a measure of quality, comfort and understanding about what all of this is about.  One of the fundamental sources that one turns to is religion. 

And above all, since other people surround us, we desire to know how to get along.  Thus, rules are proposed, constitutions are drafted, and people seek to sustain quality.  As people seek order among one another, they appeal to laws of logic, but sometimes they still turn to religion. 

All of us are familiar with the Hebraic religion, which would later spawn Christian and Islamic traditions.  I am going to read now from the first book of the Hebrew Bible, the Book of Genesis, chapter one, verse twenty-six and following.  And I’m going to take this reading from the seventeenth-century King James Version: “And God said, Let us make man in our image, after our likeness; and let them have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, And over the cattle, and over all the earth, and over every creeping thing that creepeth upon the earth.  So God created man in his own image, in the image of God created he him; male and female created he them.  And God blessed them, and God said unto them, Be fruitful, and multiply, and replenish the earth, and subdue it; and have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, and over every living thing that moveth upon the earth.”

From this ancient Semitic text, religious bodies have extracted a theological mandate to explore this world, find out how it works, and make responsible use of it.  Life and this world are the gift of the creator God.  As one reads further in the Hebrew Scriptures, explanations of people not getting along and disasters occurring are chalked up to disobedience, sin against the creator God, and his retribution.

When one turns to the traditions of the Hellenes, later called Greeks, two long epic poems emerge: The Iliad and The Odyssey.  These brilliant literary works spin out a horrific story of a ten-year bloody Trojan War, followed by a ten-year, troublesome wandering odyssey, where our hero seeks to find his way back home, to the source of life’s values.  All the breakdowns in society and hurtful fortunes of humanity, during this Homeric age, are attributed to sin against the gods and their measured retributions.

So, we pause at this point, and observe that both Hebrews and Greeks have left us an old belief system that can be summed up accordingly: “as in heaven so on earth.”  Biblical scholars have tagged this as Deuteronomic theology.  This is a belief system that explains rewards because of God’s blessing, and tragedies because of God’s punishment.  Someone long ago should have warned religious questers to get off that ideological bus at the next stop, because this is not going to take anyone to any suitable destination.  How on earth could anyone seriously believe that all good comes from obeying God and evil from offending him?  Babies die.  Good people suffer diseases.  Accidents take away loved ones.  And evil people can prosper and flourish and die at a ripe old age, rich, and in their beds with no pain of body or conscience.  Deuteronomic theology never stood the test of the opening questions.  So, we may as well go about the more fruitful task of finding a quality to this life, receiving its gifts, and making our contributions to its longevity and improvement.

I think back, way back to a world darkened in its early recorded history, when human beings lived in confusion, superstition, ignorance, wars, and suspicion of other cultures.  All of them were preoccupied with carving out a living on this planet—a planet that didn’t willingly yield up its sustenance.  Generations of thinkers tried to come to grips with the swirling mass of events that engulfed them, hoping with their thoughts and words to find meaning.  In their Scriptures, the Hebrews wrote meditations like “The entrance of Thy Word giveth light.”  Later, the Greeks would coin their own word “logos,” that we translate “word.”  Also, from “logos” we get the word logic, a structure that imposes order on chaos. The philosopher Martin Heidegger urged that “logos” could be translated as “gathering together.”

I want to move us a little further down history now, in this reflection over the world and how things work.  The Hebrew and Hellenic worlds found simple explanations of life’s rewards and calamities by making the gods responsible for it all.  Such belief systems were naïve, and we can chalk it up to earlier ignorance and superstition, but we certainly cannot justify it today, after so many centuries have yielded up historical testimony. 

It wasn’t too many centuries after the opening books of the Hebrew Bible and the tradition of Homeric verse before a group of independent thinkers whom we call the Presocratics, living in Turkey and southern Italy, broke away from these simplistic religious explanations around 585 B.C.E.  This date marks the occasion when Thales of Miletus successfully predicted a solar eclipse.  He did this by studying and making charts of the heavenly bodies.  When the people surrounding him tried to declare him a prophet, a shaman, or even a god, he rejected these claims, declaring that he simply had been studying the movements of the heavenly bodies.  This would begin the fundamental shift in thinking about ultimate matters away from “Who?” and in favor of “What?”  The discussion shifted from religion to science, from mythology to physics.  Instead of asking who made reality, the Presocratic asked “What is reality?”  “What is the ‘stuff’ of reality?”  The German word Urstoff is translated primary substance—what is the primary substance of reality?  From what is everything made? 

In our day, we would have called these Presocratic thinkers physicists.  Some argued that the primary substance was water.  Others said “air.”  Others said “fire.”  Some argued that reality was a mixture of the four prime elements: earth, air, fire and water.  Eventually they would move beyond these physical explanations and toward the metaphysical, and would once again form some kind of quasi-religious explanation of how the world works.  But let’s give them credit in the fact that they at least erased from these religious discussions all traces of some sort of personal, emotional, war-like God made in the popular images of frustrated humans.  Yes, frustrated, exasperated humans.  By the sixth century B.C.E., the Presocratics had eliminated these gods made in human images.  And now look where we stand today after all these years.  It amazes me that in our society, well-educated people still conceptualize a God with the angry demeanor of a James Dobson, pretending to Focus on the Family.  How does one explain that?

Anaxagoras was the first Presocratic to suggest that Mind was behind all that we see: it was Mind that ordered chaos into a structure that could be understood and therefore managed.  And this supreme Mind has left its copy in all of us—we possess minds to organize this reality that often comes at us in cascades of confusing details.  One person wrote: “All was in chaos until Euclid arose and created order.” Pythagoras, the popularly quoted mathematician, was the first to coin the word “philosopher.”  This is a compound Greek word whose meaning is one who “loves wisdom.”  Note that the word does not translate “love of knowledge.”  There are other Greek words, including epistēmē, that we translate as “knowledge.”  But this is the word “sophia,” translated “wisdom.”  Wisdom is more than knowledge—it is knowledge applied.  Wisdom is the “art of steering.”  The Hebrew word chochma, that we translate “wisdom,”refers to the helmsman, the shipman at the rudder, who applied his knowledge and skills to steering a course through treacherous waters. 

Heraclitus of Ephesus next emerged and offered psychological, contemplative insight as he sought to understand his world.  One reason he still appeals to writers, artists and psychologists is because his fragments offer up a poetry of dissonance.  He argued that there is a tension to be found in the heart of the mind.[2]  Instead of falling back on explanations of angry gods responsible for human suffering, he wrote that we have the conflicts within us, and “from the strain of binding opposites comes harmony.”  He also said this: “Two made one are never one”.  Arguing the same, we disagree.  Singing together, we compete.  We choose each other to be one, and from the one both soon diverge.”  My God, I’ll consider that meditation more seriously than the one who says: “The reason we have conflict is because you refuse to submit to the laws of God.”  Heraclitus also testified to the enduring power of the well-spoken word: “The prophet’s voice possessed of god requires no ornament, no sweetening of tone, but carries over a thousand years.”

Following three centuries of rich, lively debate about the world at large and the human’s role in it, an Athenian rose named Socrates.  His life had been changed at Delphi, that rugged, mountainous site in the secluded crevices of the Greek mainland.  Navigating his way patiently around and up the slopes of Mount Parnassus, he reverently approached the Temple of Apollo and consulted the Oracle.  He was forever changed by the brief, pithy word given him: gnōthi seauton, Know Thyself.  Returning to Athens, he dropped all discussions of gods and physics and went to the heart of the matter, which he summed up as this: “The unexamined life is not worth living.”  Looking at the multitudes he was moved with compassion because he saw them chained inside a dark cave.  His famous “Allegory of the Cave,” recorded in Plato’s Republic, has haunted me for decades now.  He tells the story of people chained in a cave, able only to stare straight ahead at shadows flickering on the wall before them.  These shadows are caused by a fire behind them, throwing images of whatever passes behind them onto the walls before them.  This is the only reality they have ever known or discussed among themselves.  Our hero is one of those captives who breaks his chains, rises, and climbs up out of the cave, discovers a whole new world of ideas and images, then returns to the cave to tell his fellow captors of this adventure.  They reject him as strange and out of touch with reality, their reality. 

Socrates, moved with compassion for the throngs of citizens that he envisaged as chained in their ideological caves, merely tried to set them free.  Through his relentless questions in the marketplace, he tried to enable people to knock the padlocks off their minds and face life steadily and whole, to embrace it for what it really is. 

Five centuries after Socrates, one Jesus of Nazareth looked up at his multitudes and was moved with compassion, for he saw them as wandering sheep with no shepherd.  They were faint and without direction.  Jesus would model himself as the good shepherd, leading sheep that were lost.

Here, I see a fundamental distinction between the perspectives of Socrates and Jesus.  Socrates, seeing people chained in a cave, dedicated his life to helping them break their chains and climb out of the cave to freedom.  Jesus on the other hand, perceived people as wandering lost and needing a shepherd.  He would personify the nurturer, the caregiver for the scattered flocks.  Somewhere along the roads of Christian history, a shift occurred.  Leaders of the Christian movement somehow lost that compassion and replaced it with administrative theory.  And now, rather than helping people who have lost their way, generations of shepherds have arisen that seek to lead these flocks back into the cave, where they can more easily chain them to look at the flickering shadows of their creeds and learn to recite their precepts mindlessly.  It amazes me that Christian leaders in our century still invoke the name of Jesus in their justification of returning people to these caves and bondage.  And where Socrates once used argument to spur debate, believing that such education brought freedom, the succeeding religious leaders have used the tools of fear, suspicion, intimidation, and indoctrination to padlock the minds and consciences of these sheep.  These leaders have exchanged the shepherd motif of Jesus for that more suited to the border collie.

Civilization has come too far to turn back.  Nietzsche’s hero Zarathustra chastised his nineteenth-century generation as being the first to relapse into former worn-out ideologies rather than surge forward in Enlightenment as their predecessors had done.  I cringe at the same indictment this day: how long can this nation endure the Medieval superstition and fear mongering of media preachers spewing their invectives and converting mass media into mass hysteria?  How long will our citizens willingly march lockstep into the ideological caves and sit obediently chained to worn-out creeds?  As a people, what do we want, a liberator or a shepherd?  A teacher or a locksmith?  A visionary philosopher or an orthodox priest?

An exasperated Jesus one day exclaimed: “To what shall I liken this generation?”  I close with that same question.  Just what kind of generation surrounds us today?  Is it feudal?  Is it Medieval?  Is it governed by fear, superstition, and ideological coercion? 

Why are we Unitarians here?  I believe we are here to practice religion freely, without coercion, and to recognize those liberties as human values in this society in which we live.  And we acknowledge that there are chains that bind the citizens that surround us.  But there are chains that bind us as well.  What kinds of chains hold you these days?  What things restrain you from reaching your potential, your freedom?  The time has arrived to follow the example set by our liberator, to break the chains and explore the options that surround us these days. 


[1] Sermon delivered at Arlington Unitarian/Universalist Church October 7, 2007

[2] David Farrell Krell, “Introduction,” to Martin Heidegger, Early Greek Thinking: The Dawn of Western Philosophy, trans. David Farrell Krell and Frank A. Capuzzi (San Francisco: HarperCollins, 1975), p. xvi.